"You need bodywork," my wise friend said matter-of-factly. I knew she was right. This misalignment often happens to me when I spend too much time in my head -- working, writing, over-analyzing. But this is more than that. This is something that's been going on for a long time now, and something I've turned away … Continue reading Bodywork, Yoga, Grounding
I'm wrestling with dropping words onto my screen in a conventional, orderly fashion. But I want to write. I ache to write, and at the moment it feels like the only thing that's just mine. It's also typically the one place I go to be raw, unfiltered and let the thoughts fly. But that won't … Continue reading Beauty, Brokenness, and a Little In Between
I'm gradually coming down from an emotionally demanding week. I could sugar-coat it. Explain my pain away and remind everyone that I KNOW things could be worse -- THEY ABSOLUTELY COULD BE WORSE. But sometimes I think people like myself spend too much time stuffing away pain, feeling like everyone else's stuff is more worthy … Continue reading Speaking Pain in Hopes of Alleviating Some
I haven’t written much about my marriage lately. My friend, Antoinette, and her three children came to visit a few weeks ago and when I mentioned Gil in conversation, she timidly asked, “So…how are you guys?” I took a deep breath and attempted to center myself before answering. I can be joltingly transparent and don’t … Continue reading A Holding Pattern
The past four weeks have felt insurmountably difficult. I know things will get better; I just wish I could stay in bed until they actually do. This summer has felt more difficult than usual. I'm certain a big reason for this is because my old trusty medication regimen had to be changed up. I'm also … Continue reading Parenting With ADHD Feels Impossible: Part 1
I want to tell you everything's okay...that I'm fine and all that. And while that wouldn't be a flat-out lie, it's far from the entire truth. I wish I could take a vacation from life. I want all the hard mommy duties to go away. Fuck meal prep and the revolving door that is … Continue reading Where Did the Past TWO Months Go?
On Friday, I read a post on my friend Dyane's blog that reminded me of a life-altering experience my friend, Tara, had several years ago. I do a lot of thinking about social media -- the connections, behaviors I see, the benefits, the drawbacks. I ponder how I prefer using various platforms, both personally and … Continue reading Facebook, Unfriending & Havoc Created: Part 1
I feel strongly that I should warn you about the nature of this post. It's a whiney, first-world rant of the largest degree. Move forward at your own risk. I'm in a bitch of a mood. It started at 6:30 this morning when Wallace jumped on Pier's head. Piers slept in my room last night … Continue reading Post-Holiday Funk
http://eponis.tumblr.com/post/113798088670/everything-is-awful-and-im-not-okay-questions-t Anyone who has ever suffered through depression knows that basic tasks can seem unmanageable. The link above can be saved and printed and serves as a much-needed reminder that there are seemingly little things that can make a difference in our mood. I'm saving this. What rituals do you rely on to pull you … Continue reading Printout for Low Days
I really know how to open up a can of worms and create all sorts of uncomfortableness for myself. I haven't posted much lately because I've been a trainwreck. I wish I could put it more delicately but I like to shoot straight. Let's just call this what it is. Depression is hard and I've … Continue reading What the Heck is an Impact Statement?